Indecision

So I know that it has been eons since I wrote last. Life has been very busy but that is flimsy excuse. I should have been writing more often. In any even, I have recently been thinking on choices that we all make in our lives.

It is interesting to me how making a choice one way or another can have such a great impact on later occurrences in our lives. I know that people say "live in the moment because that moment is now," but the execution of that statement, like so many other things in life, is much harder than the effort that it takes to say the words. How do we make choices? And how, more importantly do we make the "right" choices?

I think that I have been heard to say previously that there is no such thing, really, as a "right" choice, but recently I have come to think that perhaps I was a little presumptuous in making such a remark. The reason why I say this is because there are certainly "right" and "wrong" choices. However, this is not really important to what I wanted to discuss and now that I have gotten remarkable far on my little tangent I would like to gather myself back to the point. How do we know that what we are choosing is the correct thing to do when there are no stanch lines of black and white or guidelines for the territory in which we find ourselves. For example, when you are raising your children, for those of you who have or want to have children, how is it that you know that what you are doing, what you are teaching them is "right?" And who decides it. How can one child in a family grow up to be very responsible and another have no concept of it what so ever? Is it all really chance? Sort of lifes game of Russian roulet and we are just there for the food? And once you have made your choice is that to say that had you choosen differently you would not have ended up where you are? Or would you? I know that this is all just speculation but I believe that we all at some time ask these questions of ourselves. And have these same ponderances (lol).

What brought this up was my recent acceptance in to three graduate schools. I was forced to ask myself the hard questions in life, which you may think are easy or easy to answer until you are faced with asking them to yourself. "What is it that you really want?" Most of you, I am sure, would find yourselves in the same position as I have found myself of late, the answer to that question is"I do not know.... I wish that I did but I just don't know." So how do I choose just one school of three? I know that it isn't the most important decision that I will most likely ever make but at the present moment it is the more critical and most pressing question that I must answer.

I suppose that the great thing is that no matter which one I choose my experience there will definitely be phenomenal and in such a respect I am boiling over in anticipation.

If you have anything thoughts on this on just feel free to send them on my way. Ta.